Knock on the sky and listen to the sound.
~Thinking.
Why am i stressing over this? He’s the past. Why am i thinking about it all the time? i really don’t know :| i don’t love anymore… do i? No. i can’t. i DONT. i’m not with love with some two faced backstabbing low life virginity stealing asshole. He’s not even that cute. I mean maybe it’s just my weird mind. He called me a whore. What do i do about that? Maybe i just need constant affection and a person to follow my mind. i love zaid, that’s for sure. But why am i thinking about the past? Maybe it’s just because he’s cause he’s here. Maybe i just want an appoligy. He lied to me. Maybe that’s why i’m fucked up sometimes. I just keep thinking of good memories, old converstations, comments, and phone calls :| i dont like him not one bit. It’s making me depressed, i can’t be depressed or angry. Which is what i’ve been lately. Maybe it’s also cause school started and maybe it’s cause my parents are fighting more and more. Idkkk. A sad bitch. :| i don’t even want to talk about the memory i was going to write about. Why did i sleep with him? i regret it so much. “i love you” he said. lie. Yeah, he’s hot. and yeahhh, i
lovedhim. But it was too sooon. First day i met him, after talking to him for one day, same day talked to him in person, kissed him for the first time, then had sex. How did it get so far? It was just his smiling face. Oh i lied he is cute. :( damnnn… I need to stop thinking about him, it’s just cause he’s staring at me all the time now. During lunch, class changes. drama. drama. drama.what to do?
